Yes! You have described me perfectly. My earliest memories of body image were of me as a kid whose nickname was “Skinny Blink”. As I got older, my mother would always criticize my body, telling me that no matter what I did, I was destined to be fat. I do love food, but sometimes I feel like it has control over me instead of vice versa. And unlike with things like alcohol, you can’t just go “cold turkey” and cut out food from your life completely. Mindful eating certainly helps, but when I’m pressed for time and haven’t pre-made healthy meals, I tend to fall back into unhealthy patterns with food.